This is what cute looks like

Esp with the cutest being miss " I am a Princess" during her time out ,she will love her auntie for this picture when she has her 1st boyfriend over for dinner. Priceless : )

HOT but successful

Lucas's party was fun had by alll, even in the million degree weather. Wow, it was hot, esp after being out in it form 7am to set up til about 7pm taking it down.

the kids certainly don't ever seem to notice and once again the pool was a winner, and so was Lucas with all his cool new toys, and awesome Star Wars theme : )

We also had a wonderful time with our princesses this past two weeks too : )

Recent Lucas-isms

First let me say, Lucas has a very firm grasp of what are bad words and what he can say, and what are grown up words only, don't let him fool you, but he loves to come up with any excuse to say the bad words without getting into too much trouble.

Pappy made him a cd of his favorite Lucas songs (thanks Pappy) and it includes his most favorite Boom Boom Pow. Now, these are all uncut versions, form the computer and 'shit' gets said a lot in a lot more songs than I realized. Seem sot be the word of the moment, could be worse. A lot of times Lucas does not even pick up on most of the words, but he seems to be lately.

The first time we listened to the CD, he says " mom, he just said 'shit'" I say " I know Lucas, but you know thats a grown up word, and he is a grown up and can say it, you cannot." 2 min later' Mom, he said shit again, but its ok he is a grown up and can say that word" Nice.

The other day we were playing something in his room and he said " I am going to get that guy and bust his ass" Me " Lucas, come on, you know what you are not supposed to say, what do we say instead" he says " i am supposed to say butt, but I really just want to say ASS" Sigh, I give up.

I have told him if he keeps saying 'shit' we cannot listen to Boom Boom Pow anymore and he has been good about it since -HA.

And in other random Lucas news, a few weeks ago I was vaccuuming, in a completely different room than Lucas was even in, and he comes running in the room, screaming over the vaccuum , with an accusing look on his face " MOM< MOM" I yell over the vaccuum, "WHAT LUCAS? YOU CAN SEE I AM VACCUMING!" he says " I SNEEZED< SAY BLESS YOU!" Oh brother " BLESS YOU"

but my new favorite, is Lucas running into the kichen at random times, peeling his shirt off and telling me to ' Hit It" (turn on the music), so he can 'dance with his shirt off' Its hilarious, and apparantly you are only allowed to dance with your shirt off, not sure why or where he gets it form, but too funny and cute : )

Chaos-good and bad

Chaos. Does not matter what kind, it always seems to be the word that best describes my life at any given moment. My mom recently said that since I pray for patience so often, God keeps giving me tests. Okay, so what the heck do I pray for to have both patience and no more of those tests for a little while? That is the million dollar question.



Lucas's behavior is in a downturn. Not sure why right now, but this 'phase' can pass at any moment. He is testing more every day, his attiude and mouth are just plain ugly more often than not. I feel like my son is miserable all the time and he has NO reason to be. He has parents and family who adore him, a house, dogs, a yard, and more toys than 6 kids could ever play with. Its hard, and frustrating to say the least.



I am looking very forward to the fun chaos coming up, don't get me wrong. Seeing Faith, Joe and the babies always makes me happy. Lucas's annual bday bashes make me happy, despite all the work. Celebrating grandma's birthday and Morgan's baptism make me happy. Its just a little overwhelming at the same time when its all packed inside of two weeks : )



Alyssa will also be staying with us that week, and we have a baseball game that week as well. Just a lot going on. But that's all good, I can handle that.



The bad chaos. I am having a really hard time right now. I got the letter I have been dreading for 4 yrs from my friend Janice in NY. The end of her fight with cancer is very near. She is so sick they cannot do anymore chemo or that will kill her faster than the cancer ravaging her body. She is down to 87 lbs and any illness she gets, puts her in the hospital for weeks or mos at a time. The dr's say she has til maybe Christmas to live, but she does not think so. She may even hope not right about now.



However, she wants me to come see her sooner rather than later. Even wants to send me money to come. I will never take her money, she really has none. I will get there. But I cannot possibly get there til Aug 28th. I just have to hope and pray nothing happens before then.



So, while I am having fun with the good chaos, this will be in the back of my mind the whole time. It's stressful, and sad. Not to mention this will be the hardest trip I will ever have to make. I cannot handle death, saying goodbye. I dread it, I avoid it, and I just don't deal with it well. It is not something I accept readily.

If I talk to her daughter and she tells me 3 weeks is too long, I will go ASAP. Because if I make it too late, I will never forgive myself, that is just the way I am. Even though I have so much on my plate, it is nothing compared to what she and her family are going thru right now. On the same note, I am dreading it as much as I want to rush there. I don't like sad chaos : (